Headaches suck! I took some medicine about a half an hour and am ready to go on living. Before it kicked in, I was ready to die. No, I do not want to kill myself. I don't really want to die. There is still so much life I want to live.
I woke up feeling crummy. Headache, sinuses hurting, stomach issues and just plain old tired. I didn't take anything for the head pain. I don't know why. I hate that I need to take drugs every day for my headache.
I sat outside on the deck and let the tears stream. Closed my eyes and rested my head- leaning back. Thinking that 60 years is a nice amount of time. I have lived a lot in my 60 years. No, I do not feel "old", but sometimes I feel done. Ready to just stop hurting.
In all honesty, I am terrified about having brain surgery. I will be knocked out. My head will be shaved. I will wake up with staples and bandages on my head. "There's no guarantee that the surgery will make the headaches stop". That's what I have been told. I hope. Hope!
I am worn out. I want to have some fun! I want to drive again- I know I will.
The medicine has kicked in. the pain is less than what it was. Not completely, but much better than before.
Wow, I am a lot of fun! Nope, just tired. Just under 4 weeks.
My joy is here. It's just hiding. For a while. It will come back