Tired. Going to bed soon. I was tired all day. Last night I couldn’t sleep and was up until close to 4:00am. Hence the tiredness today.
I went to the chiropractor this morning which helped my sciatica. Then I spent the day collapsed on the sofa watching TV and occasionally shifting laundry from washer to dryer to said sofa for folding.
It was cool outside today- in the 50s, which was absolutely wonderful. I went out back a few times with the puppy.
I was too tired to go to my women’s group. I am rarely that tired. In fact, I came upstairs and took a nap until Nick said diner was ready.
I love it when I am writing at my computer as I am now, and I get tired and I lean back. I close my eyes and maybe I sleep some. I don’t know. I just know that I will often open my eyes and wonder for a nanosecond where I am.
Depression and stress and sadness can contribute to fatigue. I have all of those things. I think I am pretty good about keeping them all in a balance that allows me to function and enjoy my life.
I am going to the gym in the morning. I know that will make me feel better. I am meeting new moms at a Breastfeeding Café at Starbucks tomorrow. That will make me happier too.
Now I am going to bed to sleep. That will give me energy to get through tomorrow.
Insanity, they say, is doing the same thing over and expecting different results. I guess that I am insane. I expect (hope for?) flowers and accolades and I get dirty dishes and a lawn with no grass. Am I am optimist, or just insane. I doubt I will ever know