I have been trying to write about places we have been and our homes there. Mainly focusing on kitchens. And I have quite a few more to add. One of these days I will put pictures of our actual kitchens, not just clips from online.
Tonight I am going to write about myself. My present self and my current state of mind. If that works.
Of course I have been really stressed about having a tumor in my head. And I know that my family and friends are worried too. I have been missing some of my regular activities because I had too big a headache.
Today, my sister came over. We mostly lay down on the sofas and watched TV. I didn't really feel "sick" today. Just drained. Tired. Worn out and faded out. I am sure a constant headache must release some stress hormones into my system and make me feel sick in fact.
I am having surgery in ten days. That's not very long now at all. I am scared. Of the things I have written about like having my head cut open with power tools. But I am also afraid of what they will find. Has the tumor grown? Could it be cancerous? Will it come out, be gone and never come back?
I worry about the potential deficits I may be left with. I feel confident that I will come out of this alright. But there is no 100% guarantee.
I am falling asleep in front of the keyboard. I shouldn't do that!
So, good night!