Life is so confusing!

 I don't have a brain tumor according to the MRI I had last week.  I announced it at church yesterday and everyone applauded.   It's a real relief.  But also a mystery.  Why do I still have these damned headaches?

I have been waling up all achy too.  My legs feel swollen like they did a few months ago.  I know that I was diagnosed with CRPS ( Complex regional pain syndrome)   but I thought that I was all better.  But I guess maybe it comes and goes.

 It's hard NOT to be depressed.    I honestly don't feel like doing anything most of the time.  My knitting helps a lot.  Also, I am glad I have started to go to church.   Being around people helps a lot too.  Combine that with a church knitting group that I have joined and I am actually happy.

Dream are strange too.  I usually don't remember my dreams, or at least don't think about them much. The last two nights my dreams have been strange and very real.

The first one was my mom- completely healthy- not stroke symptoms- visiting me with a man (a date?).  She looked great.  I offered them some coffee but then I was not able to figure out how to make coffee even thought there were a variety of coffee makers.

Last night I dreamed that I was at the funeral of a young soldier.  At Arlington Cemetery.  There were a group of us women sitting around a round table working on decoration the table and organizing snacks.    The dead guy was on a table.  He had his uniform jacket on but just boxer shorts on the bottom.  Someone said they were waiting for makeup and manicure before completing dressing the guy and placing his in his coffin.   So strange.

One re-occurring theme is that my dad is in a special burial place at Arlington where I can go into an underground room and visit his coffin any time I want to.

What the heck?   

 

Sometime in the next week or so I am going to North Carolina to help out with Galileo.  I am not sure what I'll be doing exactly, but I am cool with babies, and this one is my grandson which makes it all worth while!