I Do NOT have a brain tumor!

 I have been thinking lately of the things I want to do.  Nothing daring or exciting in normal people's live, but something that I am good at and gives me great pleasure!

 I would love to spend at least a week at each of my kids' homes and really helping.  I am good at cleaning and organizing and find a great deal of satisfaction in doing it.

 I try to do little things when I visit.  Do the dishes, fold laundry etc.  

With Darcy and Jody maybe I could do more to take care of the baby and even let  them go out- alone- for dinner or a movie.

It's funny how sedentary I am at this time and space in my life .  I sit at my computer like I am doing now.  I watch TV.  I read.  I knit.  And I am almost always tried.  I know that it'd my sedentary life style.   

I am 71.  I guess I am old.  Or on the cusp of bring old.   Then I come across this picture of my mother around age 42 with Jimmy, her first grandson who was about 18 months old.

She was so young!   Jimmy was so young too.  If I had become a grandmother at 42 my grandchild would be in his late 50s.   Instead, I became a grandmother at 70, and when my grandson is in his 50s I will be way past 100 years old and dead!

The age old questions about where did the time go and how.

When the kids were little and living a home, I was also home- being a full time mom.  There were times when I got tired and needed a break.  But I did all of the domestic stuff- cooked, cleaned house, did laundry and washed diapers.   For the most part our house was pretty neat and clean.  And I mostly loved it.

I sewed costumes and there were pretty creative.

Do I really want to go back to all of that?  No, I am pretty sure I don't.  Would like like some of that energy back?  In a heartbeat!

I have had two brain surgeries to remove brain tumors.   The headaches I have had for the past month or so have had me convinced that I have another brain tumor.   I had an MRI and found out that I don't have any tumors in my brain.   It's such a relief!