Life

 Picture of me in a Grinnell Mom sweatshirt.  It's kind of funny because Courtney just went to her 25 year reunion at Grinnell.  Which means that this shirt is more than 25 years old.  I was recently debating if I should keep it or toss it.  At least for this occasion I am glad I kept it.

 

Then, there's this little baby boy who I love with all my heart and who I have not seen since Christmas.  Almost 6 months.  The most recent pictures I have of his are several months old (besides these here).  These were shared with me by his much older half sister, when I asked her to share with me.

Does he loom like his dad?   Hard to tell in pictures, but I think so.

 

I love all of my kids so much and I know that they love me.  But sometimes I feel so forgotten and unimportant.   They all have their own friends and their own lives for sure.   And I don't really want to live with them, but I want to feel that I am at least thought about now and then.

I know that's not fair.  Courtney always responds to my texts and emails.   The other kids get around to it eventually.  Is it something I did?  Did I raise them to be so independent that they don't need me at all?    

Of course, over the years when we were living overseas, I felt sad at the lack of letters from my mother.  Yet, when I go through old letters, there are letters from her.  

It's all okay.  I just get sad sometimes.

 Yesterday I officially joined the UU congregation of Sterling, VA.  I have/ had been a member of the UUCF (Fairfax) congregation, but stopped attending ages ago .   I started going to this church a couple of months ago.  The whole world and political situation (Donald Trump) has me so anxious and stressed that I needed this.

More later- maybe 

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