After not being very busy, I am almost overwhelmed by the number of new moms and babies needing my help with breastfeeding. It is wonderful. I love the babies. I love helping the mothers learn. What I don't love is how many of the mothers I see have the exact same issues. So many of these moms were told to give bottles, and are now facing a battle trying to learn how to overcome the frustrations that they and their babies face.
Oh well. I can only change the world one mother at a time. And sometimes more than one baby. I saw twins this week. They were so tiny- the girl was just over 4lb and the boy just over 5lb. So little and so perfect!
This evening my friend Maureen went on a home visit with me to see "how it's done". She got to see first hand how a baby can find the breast and latch himself on. She was amazed. I am always amazed and I especially love the mother's reactions when they see how smart and competent their babies are! Yes, I do love what I do. Getting paid for it is so amazing!
Now, what I am not looking forward to is Halloween. Too many creepy costumes of vampires and creepy stuff. Oh well, maybe it is because I'm not making costumes for my gang I am just not all that into it.
I am more excited about the upcoming election! We have to win!
Look at my previous entry and you should be able to figure out who my guy is!
Oh, and the other thing I am excited/ freaked out about is the storm that is coming our way. It is being called "Frankenstorm". I hope it is just strong enough to be exciting, but not enough to be too destructive!
Friday, October 26, 2012
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
Pumpkins I have known
Since it is getting to be that time of year, I decided to post pictures of two of the many pumpkins we have carved over the years.
Last year we had a chalice pumpkin
In 2008 we had an Obama pumpkin. I think we will have another Obama pumpkin this year!
Last year we had a chalice pumpkin
In 2008 we had an Obama pumpkin. I think we will have another Obama pumpkin this year!
Sunday, October 21, 2012
Mothers Can be Artists and not Realize it
October 21, 2012
After midnight
I have been looking at Facebook and have discovered an
organization called TAFA: The Textile and Fiber Art List. What an amazing collection of people and
their art. Fiber art to be
specific. Some of it is weaving, some
quilting and all sorts of other
artworks, all employing the use of fiber.
I want to do this. I
want to be this. I am a kid in a candy
shop looking at their art. I have
played around only a little bit with fiber art, but it looks so wonderful.
Some of it reminds me of the things I did with the kids when
they were younger. I used to put a
plastic tablecloth on the kitchen table so messes wouldn’t be a worry. We would paint with watercolors and occasionally
finger paints. I made play dough and
we kneaded the color into it while it was still warm. I brought rolling pins and cookie cutters to the table for making
shapes with the play dough. I even
discovered that a garlic press makes some cool play dough stuff- hair or grass
or whatever you wanted it to be.
I wonder if the kids remember weaving paper together? We could cut colored construction paper into
oddly shaped strips and then wove them together and got interesting, wavy and
wobbly patterns in our weaving. And
ever since I was little I have loved weaving together little heart baskets from
red and green paper for Christmas time.
I am an artist in my own way. By allowing and encouraging my children to explore making their
own art, I was able to be the artist too.
We have always cooked things together.
We made gingerbread houses and boller, that wonderful Norwegian doughy
treat.
I made angel food cake for birthdays, and Nick always made the
frosting. Some years when they were
young we got fancy. One year I made a
cake for Courtney that had a rainbow on it.
We were in Tromso at the time, and all of her little Norwegian friends
wanted the rainbow cake more than the Norwegian cake that was frosted in
whipped cream. That same year, Morgan
wants a cake that looked like a frog.
Somehow he was satisfied with the green cake with a few M&Ms on it.
Some of my fun projects were not such a big hit. For Courtney’s fifth birthday, in Chiang
Mai, Thailand, I made little flowerpots to look like they had dirt and worms
and flowers in them. The pots had ice
cream covered with chocolate powder (the “dirt”) and a few gummy worms on the
surface. To top it off, each pot had a
real flower stuck into the dirt. Well,
the kids just wouldn’t eat the “dirt” treats!
Being a mother really brought out my creative self. I was not always artistic, but I was
creative. We played pin the goggle eyes
on Cookie Monster and the kids were awarded “ribbons” I had made out of a deck
of cards with ribbon stapled to the backs.
The kids never had store bought Halloween costumes. This time of year, right now, for 20 years or so, was
the busiest time of the year for me.
They told me what they wanted to be and I made it. One year Courtney was a #2 pencil, complete
with a pointed hat that was the point with the lead. Morgan was several super heroes of his own creation; he was
“Thunder Bolt” and “Tidal Wave”. Austin
was a headless horseman and also a space alien that turned out to look more
like a baked potato wrapped in aluminum foil.
Darcy was a pumpkin when he was about 14 months old (living in Tromso)
| Chance as a Ninja I think- also for a Comic con |
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| Totoro- to be worn at a Comic con |
About 10 years ago, there was a sort of slow down. Kids were off at college or all grown up and
moved out. The ones at home were
getting too older. They did have me make
some comic con costumes though. I
remember feeling so sad not to be making costumes for the kids. Another weaning. I entered new stage in my parenting and the kids grew up and
established themselves as independent adults.
Now, here I am with all of my mothering talents and not
enough little people to share them with.
I watched Sarah from under the age of two and her little sister, Jessica, from 12
weeks old. They kept me going as a
mom-type. Always busy. Also
exhausting. Now that they are both in
school and after care full time, I don’t see them often. Mostly it's just nice to play the retired thing. I still do my lactation
consulting and my La Leche League work.
They keep me going!
I do knit almost constantly when I am sitting still.
I do knit almost constantly when I am sitting still.
When I look at the artists I envy, I have to remind myself
that a lot of children have apprenticed under me as they became grown ups. I am an artist.
I am also a tired mom/ wife/ friend/ sister/ great aunt and
more…
Saturday, October 20, 2012
Fall, the Leaves and the Weather are Changing
| When I was out today, the clouds were looking very serious. In a beautiful way. |
I took a few pictures today and plan to get out with my tripod this weekend and really go to town. Thank goodness I don't have to pay for film and developing like we used to!
| The hostas in the front yard are changing colors |
Friday, October 19, 2012
Everything and the Kitchen Sink too
Went to a La Leche League meeting this evening. Of course I am the oldest person there- I am
grandmother age now. But not a
grandmother, which surprisingly, I am alright with.
I love going to the meetings because I feel like I can help
and I know that occasionally I really make an impact on a new mother’s life and
her mothering. That is a wonderful
feeling and something that I feel good about.
I don’t always help mothers as much as I would like, but I do my best
and my goal is to help them feel that they are doing their best.
I have been so stressed lately. We are trying to re-finance the house. We have so much debt that it makes me get the shakes. Honestly, how do we do this? Today I tried to fax the papers off. I was using Nick’s fax machine and I
couldn’t get it to do what I wanted. I
finally ended up going to Kinko’s to send the fax. After running errands all day, when I got home, Nick said we got
our credit score in the mail. We may
not get the refinance after all. Then
what? I wish I could be calm and
mellow, but instead I am a basket of crazy.
I get the shakes and feel like crying.
I know we will live through this too. We have lived through
so much. I just get myself all worked
up and feel so hard on myself and defensive when things don’t go just right.
Ok, so here is something that has nothing to do with any of
what I just wrote. The kitchen
sink. Yup, the kitchen sink.
I love a clean house.
I unfortunately have standards that are almost impossible for anyone to
live up to, so I think it is al lot easier to not even try. I have not felt much like doing the
cleaning either. As a result, guess
what? Things are not how I would like
them to be, but I don’t feel like doing the work either.
The other day, the kitchen was really in pretty good
shape. Nick had done the dishes and
cleaned up very nicely. But nobody
sees things the way I do. I looked at
the sink and decided to really scour it.
I soaked it with Soft Scrub for a few minutes. Then I ran hot water in it and scrubbed it with a kitchen
brush. The sink was not only clean, it
was shiny and bleached white. No dirt
of crud or stains at all.
I cannot explain it, but a simple thing like that shiny sink
can make me feel so happy! I just
wanted to sigh and soak in the clean.
Yes, I am strange I guess. But
that’s me.
I am not the spotless, organized person I fantasize about
being. I could put more into housework,
but I am, after so many years and so many children, a little tired of it. But when I the spirit moves me and I
accomplish something as simple as a clean sink, I feel at peace. At least for a while.
Yes I do.
And as I get ready to get into bed for the night, I am
enjoying the sounds of the rain pouring down and the thunder rumbling. I love the rain!
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
Thoughts on Mothering
This is some of what I wrote to my daughter in response to her thoughts on having children, or not:
My feelings about having children are mine alone. I have had my children and now those adult children have to live their own lives and make their own choices.
It doesn’t matter if the choices are about having a family or what you do for fun or where you live or who you marry or or or…. I love you all with a depth unimaginable to anyone but a parent (that is not meant to be patronizing, just a fact)
So, I am the mother of five. Former children now adults. I parented five children.
Maybe I didn’t do the best job, nobody does. But I am glad I did. However, I am not totally defined as a mother. I don’t feel that I ever “lost” myself by being a mother. I am the same unique, extroverted, opinionated person I was before I was ever a mother.
Maybe being a mother has helped form how I express myself and how I see
the world. But I am still me.
My feelings about having children are mine alone. I have had my children and now those adult children have to live their own lives and make their own choices.
It doesn’t matter if the choices are about having a family or what you do for fun or where you live or who you marry or or or…. I love you all with a depth unimaginable to anyone but a parent (that is not meant to be patronizing, just a fact)
So, I am the mother of five. Former children now adults. I parented five children.
Maybe I didn’t do the best job, nobody does. But I am glad I did. However, I am not totally defined as a mother. I don’t feel that I ever “lost” myself by being a mother. I am the same unique, extroverted, opinionated person I was before I was ever a mother.
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| Courtney nursing at about 6 months old. 1978 |
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| Morgan nursing in Nick's office, Chiang Mai, Thailand 1983 |
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| Darcy nursing in our home, Tromso, Norway 1984 |
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| Chance nursing on our deck in Reston, VA 1993 |
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| Austin nursing while I typed up a report, Taipei, Taiwan 1989 |
Sunday, October 14, 2012
Sunday morning
Well, it is actually after noon, but since I still have my pajamas on, it feels like morning.
Yesterday there was frost in the morning. What a welcome sight! I will probably be complaining about the cold weather soon enough, but for now, it is wonderful! I don't mind heat too much, but humidity, I hate it! Yuck on humidity!
I went on a call (lactation call) yesterday, and on the way there and back I drove by some of the new Metro construction near Tyson's Corner. When I first sighted these huge beams (I guess that's what they were) lying on their side I felt a gasp come out of my mouth. Weird huh? But it was more a gasp of amazement at how gargantuan and beautiful these structures were. Am I strange? I love nature. The Grand Canyon was rapturous and more than words can ever touch. but there are things that we humans make that effect me the same way. This was one of thos things/ times.
Nick harvested his garden before the first frost. Here are his crops!
Yesterday there was frost in the morning. What a welcome sight! I will probably be complaining about the cold weather soon enough, but for now, it is wonderful! I don't mind heat too much, but humidity, I hate it! Yuck on humidity!
I went on a call (lactation call) yesterday, and on the way there and back I drove by some of the new Metro construction near Tyson's Corner. When I first sighted these huge beams (I guess that's what they were) lying on their side I felt a gasp come out of my mouth. Weird huh? But it was more a gasp of amazement at how gargantuan and beautiful these structures were. Am I strange? I love nature. The Grand Canyon was rapturous and more than words can ever touch. but there are things that we humans make that effect me the same way. This was one of thos things/ times.
Nick harvested his garden before the first frost. Here are his crops!
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