Energy?

A visiting crow!

 

 

 I want to know, where does energy come from? I feel depleted.   I don't feel like doing anything productive.   I see people who just are on the go all of the time.  How do they do it?

 I guess when I am having fun I have energy.  Talking with a good friend, or two or three.  That gives me energy.  Coming up with good ideas and being helpful to others.  Those are energizing.   

When we had a house full of kids I had to have energy to keep up.  And of course, many of the things on the calendar are things that I initiated- like going to parks of farms.  Sports that had to be signed up for.   Visiting my friends who had kids the ages of my kids in the hopes that they would all play together.  It usually worked out.

 I know- I am not as young as I was then.  Of course there are people who are older than  I am doing all sorts of things.  Playing sports (no thank you), Going to activities at the library or at the senior center.   

For most of my adult life, I have been busily involved in La Leche League work.  Even after the kids were grown up.   But the pandemic changed a lot of that.  Meetings were not being held in person for a long time, and by the time we went back to them, people had disappeared.    The women who were my co-Leaders moved on to other things.  I do have one co-Leader, but she works full time and is not always able to be at meetings

I do still have the once a month dinner at the Silver Diner to look forward to.  That's every month after our LLL "meeting" that nobody shows up to.   Maybe I will start inviting friends without them feeling the obligation to be at the LLL meeting.

Our dinner group fell apart too.  We belonged to a dinner group called "The Extended Family" for years.  We met once a month- usually we had pot lucks at each other's houses. Occasionally we met at restaurants.   Many of the main members of that group have died.  Or moved too far away for meetings to be practical.

Being married to an introvert means, Nick doesn't feel lonely or tired or bored by just hanging around the house.  (although he does enjoy planning travel and cruises).   

I think quite often how much I would like to start going to church again.  But I know that Nick doesn't really enjoy it.  So I don't try.  Maybe I need to try harder even if it means going on my own.

Maybe I just need a nap!