Summer is almost over

I have done very little blogging this summer.  I have been on my own for a few months and didn't feel like broadcasting that.  And, I just don't feel like saying much when the world is full of hot weather and bugs!

Nick is in China.  Has been since May.  He's coming home this week.

I am walking with a cane. Because I have a torn meniscus.  My knee hurts.  A lot.  I have had knee issues forever it seems.  But now, as I am in my 60s, the arthritis is wearing away at my knee joints.   But that's another issue.  Right now it is the tear, that I think is visible in this picture.  I am having surgery to repair it.   I hope it "takes".  I probably need a knee replacement, but my doctor said that I am too heavy and that makes me high risk.  I understand that knee replacements last about 20 years.  Since I plan to live at least another 30 years, that surgery can wait!

Nancy's right knee, August 2016

I continue to help moms and babies with breastfeeding.  With my knee pain I cannot currently "work".  By that I mean I am not making home visits in my capacity as a Lactation Consultant.  I am helping some family and friends, and moms in need of assistance online through email or Facebook.  I have gotten a couple of moms tell me how much I have helped them, which makes me feel really good!

There have been losses.  One friend's mother died.  Another friend's father in law died.  My Uncle John's sister died.   My Aunt Alice died.   I had not seen Aunt Alice in 10 years, but I always liked her.

My mother in law, who is 98 says that it is the curse of living a long life.  If you live long enough, all of your friends are gone.

I have friends in their 20s and 30s who have young children.  They are so busy and have so much energy.  I see myself in them.  Looking back in time. 

I also see myself full of energy and being busy again soon.  Very soon.    People say that "old" is a state of mind.  yes, I can see that.  But it is also a state of physical being.  My body is older.  I am not in my twenties or even my forties.   I have more health concerns.  My joints ache.  My eyes are dry.  But I have psychic energy.   In that way, I am not old yet.  I wonder if I ever will be old?  I wonder if I will know? 

Time will tell. They say